Back to it

It has been way too long since I posted an update.  My last post was filled with frustration about the delay with our move, but everything ended up working out in the end.  We settled on both houses on 10/13, back to back settlements! Then we moved into our new home on 10/21.  We were feverishly packing between those two dates, and we moved some of our most fragile possessions to the new house ourselves.  The movers took our furniture and the majority of our things, but we rented our townhouse back until the 31st, so we were able to take our time in getting every last item out.  On 10/31 we handed the keys over to the buyers, and closed one chapter of our lives, while we fully opened another.

Our new house is a dream come true, we are in a lovely neighborhood, in a wonderful school district (back in my highschool district, so hard to believe!) we have huge bedrooms, Smiley's room is more than double the size of her tiny room in our townhouse.  Our bedroom is like a palace, with a gorgeous bathroom.  We have 2 more bedrooms upstairs, one will serve as a guestroom for now, the other, an office.  We have a wide open basement with a full bath and another room that could be used as a bedroom as well.  Our kitchen is to die for, all new appliances, granite countertops, lots of cabinet space.  We have a sunroom addition with skylights and beautiful tiled floors.  Our family room has a gas fire place and is warm and cozy.  We have new hardwoods in the kitchen, living room and dining room...the living room will remain a play room for now, we are going to hold off on formal living room furniture for awhile.   The icing on the cake is our spacious, fenced in back yard.  There is so much potential for that yard, we are going to wait until the spring to decide what to do with it, but I would love to put up a swing set for Smiley.

The bulk of the unpacking has been done, my MIL and R's aunt came into town the day after we moved and helped us get the kitchen unpacked, and much of our room.  It was a huge help (despite the stress that came along with their visit) and we are more than functional now.  Since our move in date, I had to put the finishing touches on Smiley's 2nd birthday party, that was thankfully planned outside of the house.  I had so much going on, I didn't have a lot of time to think about how I felt about my baby turning 2.  When it came time for her actual birthday, it hit me like a ton of bricks...she is really growing up, there is no freezing time, as much as I'd like to think.  It was wonderful to watch her enjoy the birthday festivities, opening of presents, eating of cake, the party, she understood that all of the hubub was for her, and that's all I cared about.  I want her to know how special she is, how every birthday is a gift that she has given to us.

We were in our new house for barely a week before I started nudging R about when we should begin our cycle, one that will likely be our last with my eggs.  He looked at me wearily, amongst boxes and trash bags, and asked if I was really up for this now.  O.k. maybe I wasn't ready that particular moment, but I need to have some sort of a plan....we discussed that it might be best to wait until January, to give ourselves time to get settled, and also get through the holidays. I have a big work event coming up mid-December, and I really don't want to have to worry about when an ER would fall.  I am going to make an appointment with my RE, and talk about starting in 2 cycles, which should put me starting meds at the end of December, beginning of January...just in time for my birthday.

I am ready to get this show on the road.  We've gotten over the big hurdle of selling our house and moving.  It's been almost a year since I had my ectopic, 8 months since our failed IVF. If it's not meant to be with my eggs, so be it, but I need to know.  I need to know if it's meant to be, period.