Just when I thought things were starting to really come together with our move, we had a set back today, that I fear will put an end to our plans for the second time since May. We were supposed to go to settlement on our current home this Thursday. Tonight we get a call from our realtor saying that there hsa been an issue with our buyers' financing, they are expecting a gift from family in Korea, and they were going to have it wired to them in time for settlement. Their bank is requiring that all of their funds be present in the form of a check, so the settlement could be delayed 2 weeks. We then had to go to the sellers of the house we are buying, and beg them for a 2 week delay in our settlement. This is too much for me to handle, we have already lost 2 buyers and had to give up another house that we loved, I don't think I could go through this all over again. I'm surprised no one called the police in my neighborhood, because I was screaming so loud at my realtor, I'm sure every neighbor heard.
On top of everything else, I got a call from my RE today, I had several rounds of bloodwork done recently, and she was calling to give me the results, now that the HSG was complete. It turns out my FSH has gone up quite a bit in a year, so has my estradiol. I also had an anti-mullerian hormone test, and the results were not favorable there. All signs are pointing to a lowering of my egg reserve.
Once we are settled either way with our home situation, we will have to sit down and weigh our options of doing one more cycle with my eggs, vs abandoning ship and going toward donor or adoption. One silver lining has show itself this week, with R's new job comes new fertility coverage. If we do decide to do another cycle, at least we will be covered, that certainly eases some anxiety.
I have so much noise swirling around my head right now, I feel like I need to open my front door and just take off running, if it wasn't dark already I would probably do it. I hope tomorrow is a better day.